There are many. How the ocean can be so calming and yet so fierce and wild. How a heart can love so deeply and then have to experience great loss or tragedy. How each snowflake is unique. How the world seems to be losing common sense daily. How a couple can be desperate to bring a new life into the world and struggles and yet some women just seem to sneeze and they are pregnant even when it’s unplanned. How each person can see the same thing completely differently. How in the midst of pain God can comfort you and bring such peace. How people find gardening relaxing, I really don’t understand that lol. How you can be in a room full of people and feel isolated and alone.
There are many things I don’t understand or comprehend, I think that is part of the wonder of life itself. Always something to discover, always something to seek God about. Some things may never be answered this side of eternity, like why God created mosquitos but I am at a place where I’m okay with not understanding everything. It’s taken me 40 years, but I’m okay.
I used to battle not being in the know at work, with my friends, family, church situations that were going on…. now…. meh. Too much God has me to do, too much life to enjoy. My brain works overtime often enough without adding drama that I don’t need to be concerned with.
I used to base the need to know and understand what was going on on the fact I was just inquisitive, but really I found my identity in being the person who was in control and in the know. For me it wasn’t about sharing that information, but that I was important enough to know it.
It is actually so freeing not to know stuff, to not be weighed down by information and details, others issues and baggage.
So today as I write this, my feet are in the sand, I’m listen to the ocean waves crash on the shore as I unwind on a weeks vacation. Not concerned with what is happening at my work or in my day to day life…. just being in the moment, emptying my mind of what’s not needed to move forward.
This is still something I don’t fully understand, but God is teaching me something new, something fresh…. the world is His concern, not mine. I am merely here to be obedient when He asks, to love those around me and love Him wholeheartedly. Maybe the verse in the Bible, Luke 10:27, is just meant to be that simple?
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