A few years back I was put on a low GI diet to help with my fertility journey. The detox was not fun, but as I have listened to my body over the past few years and now I can clearly see when I have over loaded my system. When I choose to indulge it impacts my sleep…. like right now as it’s 12:30am and I am wide awake….. earlier this week I did an all nighter and didn’t go to sleep until 5:30am…. that better not happen again tonight. But it’s sugar…. sweet, enticing, delicious, addictive, oh so wonderful sugar. The high and energy from it is wonderful, but the crash on the other side, the headaches as I ween myself off it again, the impact it has on my emotions, not so fun, not so wonderful, for me or those around me. Yet I still go ahead and have more at times.
Why do we do that, desire what’s bad for us, relationships, food, or whatever your fix is? Often it is about short term pleasure or perhaps short term relief from pain. We live in an age where masking, quick fixes, band aids on gapping wounds (metaphorically) or perhaps ignoring our problems are the answer. Thinking if we don’t address the issue it will just stop being there….. but that is not how life really works.
I tend to be an emotional eater, if I’m having a tough time, my logic and determination to eat well goes out the door. But my bad sugar habits can easily be addressed, simply by not bringing chocolate and other sugar filled delights into my home. Enabling my lack of self control when it comes to sugar is a choice, a decision. I have the power to change the situation, I have the ability to decide what I put into my body. But yet the short term satisfaction wins when trying to mask pain and hurt in addressing what is going on internally on an emotional level.
We all have worries that we carry, but I have to remind myself often of
1 Peter 5:7 ‘cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.’
Ask God who loves you and cares for you to carry your concerns. Ask Him what to do. Choose not to mask your feelings, but instead become vulnerable before Him, cry, yell if you need to, but don’t carry it alone, in fact don’t carry it at all, He’s offered to do that for you. It’s a simple as praying a prayer like this….
God, I don’t know what to do about ____________, I can no longer deal with it alone. It says in your Word to cast my anxiety to you, so right now I choose to do that, I choose to let go of trying to control what is going on and trust you to help me in this situation. I know I may have to do this a few times today, to remind myself You have this in control, but I start now to let go. Amen.
It’s true, you may need to pray that prayer a hundred times a day as you retrain yourself to let go. You may even feel like nothing is changing to start with, but I have learnt that as you truly let go, you feel lighter, you feel better, you feel free from he weight of your circumstances, even if nothing appears different. So give it a try and let me know how you get on.
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